MARY MAGDALENE

 I don't know how to love him. 
 What to do, how to move him. 
 I've been changed, yes really changed. 
 In these past few days, when I've seen myself, 
 I seem like someone else.
 I don't know how to take this. 
 I don't see why he moves me. 
 He's a man. He's just a man. 
 And I've had so many men before, 
 In very many ways, 
 He's just one more.
 Should I bring him down? 
 Should I scream and shout? 
 Should I speak of love, 
 Let my feelings out? 
 I never thought I'd come to this. 
 What's it all about?
 Don't you think it's rather funny, 
 I should be in this position. 
 I'm the one who's always been 
 So calm, so cool, no lover's fool, 
 Running every show. 
 He scares me so.
 I never thought I'd come to this. 
 What's it all about?
 Yet, if he said he loved me, 
 I'd be lost. I'd be frightened. 
 I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope. 
 I'd turn my head. I'd back away. 
 I wouldn't want to know. 
 He scares me so. 
 I want him so. 
 I love him so.

 From Jesus Christ Superstar