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Try a workout, pay your bills for the month, or get lost in a good book. Establish Boundaries - Setting boundaries is so often thought of as something you set between yourself and another person. Once you are clear on your limits you can also become clear about what you need from particular situations and relationships.

I have loving support and encouragement from so many sources. Getting Free As with all of life's challenges, the solutions to codependency are found in God's Word. Recognize common situations that cause codependent relationships.

Codependency - Who Am I Without Others? - Another common situation that leads to codependency is a history of abuse. Now I can continue to work on me knowing this.

I was a child and, subsequently, struggled with low self-worth for most of my life. Although I had many friends and a good family, I consistently looked for approval outside of myself. I grew up believing that the opinions of others were the only accurate representations of my core worth. During these years, I felt a lot like an island. I was often plagued with a dark, mysterious unhappiness. The standard teenage growing pains conglomerated with the trauma of losing my familial identity. In a desperate attempt to counter these negative feelings, I sought the approval of others; when it was not provided, I felt like a failure. I was caught up in vicious cycle of seeking outside confirmation that I was good enough. At school, I adopted the role of boy-crazy-funny-girl. I wanted to be adored and nurtured and cherished. I kept a list of all the cute boys at my school and spent hours daydreaming about a blissful, fairy tale love. I consistently focused on seeking happiness outside of myself. This habitual practice, over time, led to an inability to be content unless something or someone was providing validation. Most of the time, I felt like I was. This falsely instilled belief led me into a decade-long struggle with codependency. The first codependent relationship I was involved in began when I was nineteen. He was ten years older than I was, and, unbeknownst to me at the time, a cocaine addict. Our routine was unhealthy and unproductive. We would spend our weekends drinking and gambling at a local pool hall. More often than not, I spent my entire weekly paycheck by the end of Saturday night. He belittled me, called me names, and consistently criticized my appearance and weight. He compared me to his previous girlfriends. I began to see myself as an incomplete person, one who was in need of major repairs and upgrades. In a frantic effort to self-preserve, I adopted several fear-based behaviors. I became obsessed with him. I was controlling and jealous. I needed to know everything about his past. I wanted desperately for him to accept me. Over the ten months we spent together, I neglected my body and mind. My weight dropped a staggering thirty pounds. I was completely disconnected from my family and friends. I developed severe anxiety and suffered crippling. I knew something had to change, so I gathered the courage and left him behind. I thought that I was rid of this unhealthy and unsatisfying lifestyle, but the bad habits carried into my next two relationships. I spent four years with a person that I loved very much; however, his alcohol dependency brought all of my insecurities and controlling behavior back into play. We spent four years flip-flopping between wonderful loving moments and horrific physical fights that left us both numb and depressed. When this relationship ended, I sought comfort in yet another unavailable partner, one that could not provide me with the stability that I so badly needed. Such is the nature of the codependent person. We seek out what is familiar to us, but not necessarily what is good for us. After logging close to a decade-worth of codependent hours, I finally faced myself. I got myself a small apartment and started my recovery. The first few days spent alone were absolutely torturous. I cried and cried. I had trouble doing basic tasks, like walking my dog or getting groceries. I had completely turned inward, nurturing my turmoil like an old friend. Anxiety-ridden and lonely, I did the only thing I could think of: I asked for help. This is probably the most significant self-improvement book I have ever read. I felt a weight being lifted as I read, page by page. Finally, I was able to understand all of the behaviors, feelings, and emotions I had struggled with for so long. You can read more about the. This gave me a platform to share my story, without judgment, and little by little, I healed my aching heart. The most significant things I learned on this journey are: 1. Without change, nothing changes. This is such a simple yet profound truth. The cycle of codependency can only be overcome by establishing and nurturing a super-loving relationship with yourself. Otherwise, you will continually find yourself in unhealthy, codependent relationships. I chose partners with alcohol and drug dependencies. Often, I chose angry and avoidant men. By focusing on what was wrong with them, I could ignore what was empty and unfulfilled in me. I thought, naively, that this would give me a feeling of stability. In fact, it did the opposite. Surrendering the need to control other people provides us the necessary space to connect with ourselves. Love and obsessions are not the same. I falsely believed for many years that love and obsession were one and the same. I gave so much of myself to my partners, naively thinking that this was the road to happiness. Time alone, time with friends, and time to work on personal projects allows you to really connect when you are together, without feeling suffocated. We build trust when we afford ourselves, and our partners, some breathing room. For many years I. I now prioritize personal time to do individual activities: reading, writing, walking, reflecting. I started to heal once I learned to incorporate self-love rituals into my life. One of my favorite things to do is spend the evening in a warm bubble bath, light some candles and listen to Alan Watts lectures. Life is not an emergency. This is a biggie! I consistently lived in a high-stress vortex—terrified of people, abandonment, and life itself. I worried so much about all of the things that were outside of my control—often, other people. I realize now that life is meant to be enjoyed and savored. Good and bad things will happen, but with a centered and balanced heart, we can get over any obstacles. The key to balance, for me, is to live fully in every moment, accepting life for what it is. I have loving support and encouragement from so many sources. I hope I have done that with this post. This site is not intended to provide and does not constitute medical, legal, or other professional advice. The content on Tiny Buddha is designed to support, not replace, medical or psychiatric treatment. Please seek professional care if you believe you may have a condition. Before using the site, please read our and.

The first few days spent alone were absolutely torturous. His power is available to those who ask. We are note to say no without feeling guilty and yes without feeling angry. Establish Boundaries - Setting boundaries is so often thought of as something you set between yourself and another person. Feeling guilty, perfectionism, people pleasing, fixing others, self depreciation, controlling. The first step towards breaking the shackles of codependency is acknowledging the shackles of emotional transference exist. Recognize if your child is also codependent. Detach from unhealthy involvements. Recognize common situations that cause codependent relationships. Also, it can be helpful to work with a therapist who understands codependency in order to develop a greater understanding of not only what you file to change but how you plan to get there. As adults, these people often end up care taking others beyond what is useful to either person.